Damn man!!! They deleted my stuff from the computer course computer AGAIN!

I mean, it's not even dfunny ¬.¬ All my exercises and some personal stuff I wrote are there. Whoever is deleting my stuff like, once a month, is gonna be punished if I find out who's messing with me >.<

Also, there's some moron that disconfigures the mouse and everytime I come here (yes, I'm at the course right now) I have to fix the mouse configuration for it to be ussable.

Some people are such jerks >.<

I have fury!!!!!

Next Saturday I'm going to a sort of rave and I wish that there was someone to come with me.

But I don't have, because I'm a lonely girl *lol*

I don't care much about it though. Give me some music, a corner to dance and I'm through. Some acid would be just great too, but, this isn't really that easy to get as the other items XD

Gotta get in contact with the people that I know that can get it for me, since I have no contacts. Even if I had an international friend to get it to me, I would more than sure to pay him or her back, really. Yeah, I would send a letter with money. Can I get sweeter????

Anyways, I'm happy about how things are going right now and I think I finally figured out what I want to write about on the 'book project' that I'm having. I'm gonna talk about my life, but, just one particular aspect of it.

No, it isn't my sex lives, your pervs!

Like I have any...

Anyway, good vibes to all you fellas out there in the world ^^

I think I should spent more time with this journal here. I like it a lot and Just ADORE the communities I'm part of within this account ^^

Gotta make a post on hippies4u and a_girls_freedom to see if there are folks from my country in these comms.

My 'adventure' to search and find drugs and/or drug info led me to buy a book, the Psychedelic's Encyclopedia, that I just looked briefly but seems like a very interesting thing to read. I'm happy with this acquisition.

Also, bleh. The LSD plan went down the drain (as I should have suspected *lol*) but I won't give up on my journey. One day I might be able to taste the rainbow *giggles*

What makes me happy is that I know now that I'm not so addicted to Dryll as I thought I was, what's a relief. Three weeks totally clean. Pure joy! Well, kind of, because I love the effects that it gives to me, can't lie XD

Music makes my life soooooo happy. And so does Keith Moon and other people I admire.

What had been happening on my life? I'm trying to find something to do and get me some money. I'm so poor at the moment *lol*

Well, yes, tomorrow I probably have more things to say. Today, just wanted to drop by and say that I'm back into action.

I'm really excited for what might be my first LSD experience the last weekend of this month. I'm trying to sort the right songs for the occasion, trying to organize what I might watch (or, try to, depending on my mood while I'm in the experience XD). I'm really curious of what can come out of this all.

I think now it's the most proper moment for me to try it. I'm totally relaxed, no school or job worries. Past stuff that were troubled had been restored totally. My cat that was sick is now, not fully healed, but, she's walking through this path, so, this makes me relaxed too.

The setting is wonderful, I'm with my mood in total control and I'm not sad or disappointed in any way, so, this is the right time. I'm happy with everything that's going on, really. I'm just not being able to buy some stuff I want, but, Lord, if it was enough to get me depressed, I would live in depression *lol*

The music I've been hearing lately is making me cheerful too. Lots of 60's smashing tunes.

Damn, I can't decide which songs I want to guide me on my 'trip. I might end up throwing loads of Who tunes in it, just in case. If it gets too big (I mean, the folder where I'm organizing stuff), I'll have to record it on a rewritable DVD. Gosh, a DVD full of songs. It's a lot of time... I might put it on shuffle or something, so then I can get a little from everything.

Also, I'll be buying an electronic tuner for my guitar, Margareth. She needs to be tuned.

I've been learning lots of stuff on the guitar course. It's so hip!

Bleh... It has been some time hm?

I'm high on Dryll right now, but I'm extremely bored because there's nothing for me to do.

Well, at least now that I know liquid is way better than pills for me, at least I'm not suffering with dry mouth XD

Maybe my friend will get me half-paper of LSD. Cant say I'm not anxious, but, this time I'm knowing how to control the anxiety.

Maybe I'll get it with him in the 17th, and, I'll probably take it in 23rd, when going to bed, so then I'll trip on my bedroom, alone and no one will be there to know it. Well, I just hope that the 'morning after effects' don't give my parents lots of 'clues' to see I went on a trip XD

But, even though I'm bored, I'm totally happy.

That's what matters the most now.

On my hands. Next month. In two weeks.

Too much for me to handle.

I'm anxious, again.

If it wasn't for the Valium, it would be even worst to wait.

But, Valium was just a small experience, really. I don't want get involved in this like I got with Dryll.

I kicked Dryll two weeks ago and jumped to Valium yesterday.

It was fun to take it before going to sleep, because I got knocked out and got the most realistic dreams of my life. I also did stuff I can't remember, like eating half of an apple (that was lying on the floor of my bedroom when I woke up, for some reason). I also, at some point of the night, changed the wallpaper of my cellphone. Creepy enough, I changed to Keith Moon (that's already dead, for the records). This made me quite scared (more than the apple thing). I mean, it made me wonder if it was really me that changed it.

How I got my hands on Valium you ask? I stole it from the vet where my cat is in now being treated. Yep, I'm stealing medicine from hospitals now. This is so sad.

But, it's all for the sake of science! At least, I'm making tests on myself and not in the others. I'm my own guinea-pig.

Oh, and liquid Valium is bitter! Be careful! It's really bitter. Try to take it in pills, always.

Well, first, welcome on board anaalexandriess! I hope you enjoy this non-sense that's my journal.

I'll try to make it less 'gap-y' by adding some of my weird adventures through the world of soul searching and trying to get in contact with my inner self. Of course, it won't be easy.

And, hey, who could guess that Dryl makes it impossible for you to write? I couldn't write today. Nothing. And I had to sign almost ten papers with my ID number and other stuff -.-; Things are pretty against me in this Drylled day.

Nausea, it's too little to describe how I was feeling in the first two hours. Gosh, I thought I wouldn't stand. But, I finally got home, laid down and it passed, while I was seeing some really funny stuff, like my ceiling-fan melting, my mirror looking like water and words flashing from the hand of Mike Nesmith on the poster I have here on the wall. Groovy! I also think the music I was listening through my headphones sounded a little bit different. There was something peculiar about them.

Now, the hallucination thing stopped, and now there's only the aura-like light surrounding everything I see in 'middle-dark'.

And, when I was coming back home today, on the bus, I closed my eyes to prevent me from more nausea (believe, it works for me) and then I started to see some soft visuals and, suddenly, all turned black in my sight and I saw bright blue things flashing. It was too quick. Like, three seconds. I think I saw a bird. It was outasight!

And, nothing else extraordinary happened, really. I just sat here, going to the bathroom every five minutes to pee (only problem with Dryll -.-;) and watching The Who.

Nothing else to add darlings.

Yeah, I came across the fact that I'm a BIG lucky bi***, regarding the stuff that happened to me the last days. And now I gotta say something out loud. And I'm not taking bullshit from anyone, because I'm already almost 20 years old and I know what I want for my life, so, don't come to me with lectures! The only ones that can still do this is my mother and father.

Maybe I'll sent this to Erowid...

( It's long. I don't want to fill up your friends page XD )

So, yes, wild weekend and Monday to me. Well, not really that wild, but, whatever. Let's start...

( Part 1: Partying 'till the daytime )

( Part 2: Seeing the invisible and hearing the unhearable )